31august09

merdeka?!!
today is malaysia's independence day~
wuhuuu..
actually...
i donno its the 52nd birthday o 53 birthday..
i only know its 52 yr old birthday thru newspaper dis morning.. :P
kakaka
bad citizen..
but its ok.. i am sill... proud to b malaysian..

boring day to b exact..
y?
cuz nth to do lo.. duhhh~
went breakfast wif fren.. visit kulu macai..
fetch mum
go home
sleep
wake up
eat
go airport
come back
sit around
on9
damn... its already 11 plus..
i am wasting my time..
wasting my life
i am a stupid girl
i need to BUCK UP!!!!
sometimes
i know i should b studying..revising..
but
i will avoid
avoid from studying..revising
y?
studying n revising so scary meh?
ghost u not scared..but u scared to study?????!!
OMG!!
please..
its time..to get back to track b4 its too late..
dont repeat ur mistakes hL!
sigh~~ no hope for u ad la hL

i failed as a kid
i failed as a teenager
i might fail as an adult also
sigh~

feelings

THERE R TIMES...
i wanna run away..
i wanna hide..
i wanna disappear..
i don wan ppl to know me..
i don wanna know others..
i wish i am retard enough so i wont know anything..
i love u..
i hate u..
i understand u..
i decline u..
AND
there r lots of times i wanna shut my world off..
due to stress..tension..complicated life..
complicated feelings..
feelings i cant fight..
feelings i cant hide..
WORSE
i dont wanna understand myself...
BEST
too afraid to understand myself..
BECAUSE
as usual..
life is hard..
life is hectic..
life is suffocating..
life is unexpected..
BUT
~its all in the mind~
i was told dat "mind" created all dat..
cuz ~likes attracts like~
the more u think of those bad experience..
the "mind" create more bad experiences for u to feel all the sorrow..pain..etc..
wow..how powerful brain can b..
guess i need to think of ways to control it..?

been observing things around me..
and i realise..
the most scary things in the world is not ghost
BUT
is human!
y??
cuz ghost cant touch u..cant kill u..
the most a ghost can do is make u end up in tanjung rambutan :P
but human...
can kill u.. can rob u.. can even BURY U ALIVE!!
dats the scariest thing on earth!!!!!

and

the dirtiest thing on earth is not shit..
is
MONEY!!
u don know how many ppl had already touch the money b4 the money appear on ur hand
u dont know where the money drop b4 appear on ur hand
and money can cause human end up killing each other!
but shit.. comes out from ur tummy..straight to the potty.. u wont touch it anyway! :P

untitle

cant believe its over....
cant believe i am the one who destroy it
cant believe he's gone for good
cant believe it ended lik dis..
cant believe i am feeling the pain
cant believe....

new yr

my NEW YR 2009 started wif a fight..
and ended wif a break up..
wat actually happened was only some small matter..
but v both does not want to giv in..does not want to lose..
i keep telling myself to be patient...
juz let him say wat he want to say
but i didnt follow as wat my heart told me to do..
and now i have to tell myself "its ok"
i am better wif myself..
YES! definitely i will be better WITHOUT HIM cuz i will never look back n cry o so-watever

=broken heart wif broken smiles=

:P
the song "have you ever by brandy" used to be a song that always keep repeat over n over again in my head 24/7... it seems lik this song is reminding me bout the past... it seems to be telling me ""yen a yen.. u failed""
haha... but now... this song disappear already lo.... because it seems lik i am having a almost-impossible dream come true..
muahahahha... now i believe that dreams actually come true when you believe it will...
wondering why... here's why... =)
I'M IN LOOVVEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!
omg dis is so true!!

I hate people keeping things from me and yet assuming I would understand.

You know what…

if there is things that you didn’t plan to tell me from the beginning then PLEASE don’t let me find out at all..

cause if I ever find out….

IT WILL PISS ME OFF!!

it will piss me off..

there will be fire burning on top of my head and lots of vulgar words will come out from my mouth…don try to dirty my mouth!!

change topic….

Believe in “true love”?

Is there anything on earth named “true love”?

I don’t know…. but I think there is such thing…

I might not be that lucky but I am lucky to have him…

i am satisfied to have him... happy cuz our relationship is stronger den ever!