haha stupid laptop's sound system ok ad.. kekekeke
means......
music music music~~
been listening to dis song over n over again... damned!!

Emotion
by destiny's child

It's over and done
but the heartache lives on inside
And who's the one you're clinging to
instead of me tonight?

And where are you now, now that I need you?
Tears on my pillow wherever you go
I'll cry me a river that leads to your ocean
You never see me fall apart

In the words of a broken heart
it's just emotion taking me over
Caught up in sorrow
lost in the song
but if you don't come back
Come home to me, darling
don't you know there's nobody left in this world tohold me tight
nobody left in this world to kiss goodnight
Goodnight, goodnight

I'm there at your side,
I'm part of all the things you are
But you've got a part of someone else
You've got to find your shining star

And where are you now, now that I need you?
Tears on my pillow wherever you go
I'll cry me a river that leads to your ocean
You never see me fall apart

In the words of a broken heart
it's just emotion taking me over
Caught up in sorrow
lost in the song
but if you don't come back
Come home to me, darling
don't you know there's nobody left in this world tohold me tight
nobody left in this world to kiss goodnight
Goodnight, goodnight

And where are you now, now that I need you?
Tears on my pillow wherever you go
I'll cry me a river that leads to your ocean
You never see me fall apart

In the words of a broken heart
it's just emotion taking me over
Caught up in sorrow
lost in the song
but if you don't come back
Come home to me, darling
don't you know there's nobody left in this world tohold me tight
nobody left in this world to kiss goodnight
Goodnight, goodnight

y is it so hard to focus..??
so hard to concentrate??
sigh i hate myself for dis..
stupid gal i am :((

31august09

merdeka?!!
today is malaysia's independence day~
wuhuuu..
actually...
i donno its the 52nd birthday o 53 birthday..
i only know its 52 yr old birthday thru newspaper dis morning.. :P
kakaka
bad citizen..
but its ok.. i am sill... proud to b malaysian..

boring day to b exact..
y?
cuz nth to do lo.. duhhh~
went breakfast wif fren.. visit kulu macai..
fetch mum
go home
sleep
wake up
eat
go airport
come back
sit around
on9
damn... its already 11 plus..
i am wasting my time..
wasting my life
i am a stupid girl
i need to BUCK UP!!!!
sometimes
i know i should b studying..revising..
but
i will avoid
avoid from studying..revising
y?
studying n revising so scary meh?
ghost u not scared..but u scared to study?????!!
OMG!!
please..
its time..to get back to track b4 its too late..
dont repeat ur mistakes hL!
sigh~~ no hope for u ad la hL

i failed as a kid
i failed as a teenager
i might fail as an adult also
sigh~

feelings

THERE R TIMES...
i wanna run away..
i wanna hide..
i wanna disappear..
i don wan ppl to know me..
i don wanna know others..
i wish i am retard enough so i wont know anything..
i love u..
i hate u..
i understand u..
i decline u..
AND
there r lots of times i wanna shut my world off..
due to stress..tension..complicated life..
complicated feelings..
feelings i cant fight..
feelings i cant hide..
WORSE
i dont wanna understand myself...
BEST
too afraid to understand myself..
BECAUSE
as usual..
life is hard..
life is hectic..
life is suffocating..
life is unexpected..
BUT
~its all in the mind~
i was told dat "mind" created all dat..
cuz ~likes attracts like~
the more u think of those bad experience..
the "mind" create more bad experiences for u to feel all the sorrow..pain..etc..
wow..how powerful brain can b..
guess i need to think of ways to control it..?

been observing things around me..
and i realise..
the most scary things in the world is not ghost
BUT
is human!
y??
cuz ghost cant touch u..cant kill u..
the most a ghost can do is make u end up in tanjung rambutan :P
but human...
can kill u.. can rob u.. can even BURY U ALIVE!!
dats the scariest thing on earth!!!!!

and

the dirtiest thing on earth is not shit..
is
MONEY!!
u don know how many ppl had already touch the money b4 the money appear on ur hand
u dont know where the money drop b4 appear on ur hand
and money can cause human end up killing each other!
but shit.. comes out from ur tummy..straight to the potty.. u wont touch it anyway! :P

untitle

cant believe its over....
cant believe i am the one who destroy it
cant believe he's gone for good
cant believe it ended lik dis..
cant believe i am feeling the pain
cant believe....

new yr

my NEW YR 2009 started wif a fight..
and ended wif a break up..
wat actually happened was only some small matter..
but v both does not want to giv in..does not want to lose..
i keep telling myself to be patient...
juz let him say wat he want to say
but i didnt follow as wat my heart told me to do..
and now i have to tell myself "its ok"
i am better wif myself..
YES! definitely i will be better WITHOUT HIM cuz i will never look back n cry o so-watever

=broken heart wif broken smiles=