Thinking back…

Well. I complains a lot since I am young.. Now lesser I guess?..

haha but never mind..

What I want to say is…dat I think I am the one ruin my life n blaming it on others…

izzit?

Yes yes!

Definitely is me! *childish rite*

Looking back to those days….

I think my results were not so bad. I mean during primary sch la.. haha

But then.. y when I go to secondary sch my results going down n down..??? haha

And I actually blame it on somebody for giving me a hard time.. [It’s really sensitive to mention names >.<]

So what the hell…

Thinking back…~~

Actually the main reason is I can’t get what I want…

I can’t make my life to b exactly just like what I’ve wanted it to b… so what the fuck...

I just give up… TOTALLY give up without putting affords to change things…

Wondering y I am so brainless back then... zzzz >.<

Things remain till I go to a local college... still tak insaf insaf... isk isk…

I skip class… sleep in class… fail exams… lazy... not studying…

Lucky I still manage to finish the course... hahaha *don ask me how... I donno how also*

Den…..

I tot I can start my so-called “working-life”…

I went to an interview... in BBK klang...

But after the interview...

I asked myself... is dis wat I want.???

Start working just like dat??

Using ur so-called diploma? From a stupid idiotic college dat oni well-known in klang?

What if I want to work outside of klang??? Ppl might don accept me

N darn... stuck in klang???

wif a 1.1K salary Per month??? Wtf?????

Dat small amount of salary enough for me?? [Aiks don need ask also noe it’s not enough for me]

Den I started to…

OMG!! OMG!!!!!!

Dis is my life?? So pathetic weh…

Lucky shit to have my frenz… haha.. After some survey... here I am... in sunway college... [It is an orang kaya college but that wasn’t the reason I am there for...zzzz =. =”…]

And there is a promise I made...

Which I need to make sure dat I won’t break my own stupid promise...

No matter what fucking reason I’m going to finish the damn fucking course...

I want to b ME again...

I don wana b nobody!

Well… till now... I am satisfied wif myself... its not only b’cuz of the afford I put in...

It’s the results I get... this were the thing that keeps me going…. And not forgotten... my big pig haha... he is the one behind all dis...

He is the another reason dat keeps me going…. I lurve n hates him so much..hahahha

and the main reason I am writing dis hope ppl who so-lucky reading dis shit will take dis story-of-mine as a lesson… I now there r ppl who r stuck in a junction don’t know where to go... my advice is follow ur heart... there is no use regretting it later cuz there is No way to turn back time.. U cant changes what’ve happen...

And to my lil couz... if u happens to read dis…. I want to tell u dat life goes on... the changes they makes u to make is not a big deal.. Life is full of changes n challenges… just take it wif an open heart…IF u can’t change it… and... When u r happy n willing to accept it wif a open heart... den black n white CAN b colorful again..