life is never easy

i dont know bout others. but my life is never easy since the beginning.
since small, i donno y somehow i felt dat i was the "black sheep" of the family.
1.sis doesn't like me, calls me the"lil devil".
2.i am always the one kena blame if anything happens
3.i am always the one have to do hsework while my siblings can lay back n do nth.
4.mum doesnt lik any of my frenz.
5.she even call them "not 3 not 4" fren LOL (translation from hokkien)
6.the thing is, she only critic bout my fren. she loves my sibling's frenz.
7.mum always compare me wif my siblings.
" u c ur bro get how many A's, wat u get??"
"next time ur siblings all gets high salary, wat will u get??"
8. they always say i am the pampered one in the family, i dont think so~!
wat "pampers"LOL do i get??
by comparing me wif others? by being a maid in the hse??

i get to drive to sch during high sch is called pampered??
have u ever think of the reason y i drive myself to sch n last time she fetches all of u go n back from sch n tuitions??
did i volounteer to drive?? did i force u to get me a car to drive to sch??

NO!!! i didnt!! i also wanna b ordinary kid who have parent to pick them up after sch o tuitions!!
when i got robbed by stupid indian who r there to rescue me?? mum?? dad??
forget bout dad!! the distance btwn sch n his shop is juz 10min away. and he prefer sleeping in shop then fetching me back!! so i have to walk!!!!!! walk everyday back from sch n one day kena rob! wtfff and yet i didnt blame anyone of u for all dat. i kept quiet. i know there is nth anyone can do n i doesnt lik to force others to do things for me.

and now,

y muz i get all the hurts??
y drag me in?
its not me who wanted dat lump sum of money! its u!!!
in the end i am the bad kid.
u tot those things he say to me doesnt matter??
wat will u feel if one day ur father tells u dat
"i dont know worth it o not to giv u dis lump sum money to go further ur studies"
suddenly i get dis kind of feedback.
i tell myself it doesnt matter cuz he is a useless dad.

but y??

y u muz say the same thing to me??
"worth it o not to buy me a car??"
hey lets make it clear!
from the beginning till now i DIDNT ask for any new car!
i love the kembara!!
u r the one who want to buy the car n now, out of the sudden asking me whether worth it o not??

what am i? a robot who does not have feelings?? or i deserve to die from the beginning itself???
u shouldnt have let me come to dis world!

thanks mum n dad for directly telling me how worthless i am.
FAMILY=RUBBISH!