a montly expense book konon..

when i started to record all of my outgoing expense,
i think its a good thing to do
cuz i know how much n wat i've spend for the month
dats the purpose of such book rite??!
well.. its a good thing i tot,
but now..
its giving me HEART ATTACK each month n all the guilt i felt was irrecoverable!!!
end of each month i will b thinking...
"crap!! how nice if i've saved up half of wat i've spend??"
"hL! u r a BIG BIG spender!!"
dis book leaves me wondering how am i gonna survive in the future when the amount of my spending is almost a month's salary of a worker. i mean those general clerk.

been thinking to continue dis book for yr 2010 or not...
sighhhh

never ending lil prob keeps flowing in... :s :(((