feelings

THERE R TIMES...
i wanna run away..
i wanna hide..
i wanna disappear..
i don wan ppl to know me..
i don wanna know others..
i wish i am retard enough so i wont know anything..
i love u..
i hate u..
i understand u..
i decline u..
AND
there r lots of times i wanna shut my world off..
due to stress..tension..complicated life..
complicated feelings..
feelings i cant fight..
feelings i cant hide..
WORSE
i dont wanna understand myself...
BEST
too afraid to understand myself..
BECAUSE
as usual..
life is hard..
life is hectic..
life is suffocating..
life is unexpected..
BUT
~its all in the mind~
i was told dat "mind" created all dat..
cuz ~likes attracts like~
the more u think of those bad experience..
the "mind" create more bad experiences for u to feel all the sorrow..pain..etc..
wow..how powerful brain can b..
guess i need to think of ways to control it..?

been observing things around me..
and i realise..
the most scary things in the world is not ghost
BUT
is human!
y??
cuz ghost cant touch u..cant kill u..
the most a ghost can do is make u end up in tanjung rambutan :P
but human...
can kill u.. can rob u.. can even BURY U ALIVE!!
dats the scariest thing on earth!!!!!

and

the dirtiest thing on earth is not shit..
is
MONEY!!
u don know how many ppl had already touch the money b4 the money appear on ur hand
u dont know where the money drop b4 appear on ur hand
and money can cause human end up killing each other!
but shit.. comes out from ur tummy..straight to the potty.. u wont touch it anyway! :P