Thinking back…

Well. I complains a lot since I am young.. Now lesser I guess?..

haha but never mind..

What I want to say is…dat I think I am the one ruin my life n blaming it on others…

izzit?

Yes yes!

Definitely is me! *childish rite*

Looking back to those days….

I think my results were not so bad. I mean during primary sch la.. haha

But then.. y when I go to secondary sch my results going down n down..??? haha

And I actually blame it on somebody for giving me a hard time.. [It’s really sensitive to mention names >.<]

So what the hell…

Thinking back…~~

Actually the main reason is I can’t get what I want…

I can’t make my life to b exactly just like what I’ve wanted it to b… so what the fuck...

I just give up… TOTALLY give up without putting affords to change things…

Wondering y I am so brainless back then... zzzz >.<

Things remain till I go to a local college... still tak insaf insaf... isk isk…

I skip class… sleep in class… fail exams… lazy... not studying…

Lucky I still manage to finish the course... hahaha *don ask me how... I donno how also*

Den…..

I tot I can start my so-called “working-life”…

I went to an interview... in BBK klang...

But after the interview...

I asked myself... is dis wat I want.???

Start working just like dat??

Using ur so-called diploma? From a stupid idiotic college dat oni well-known in klang?

What if I want to work outside of klang??? Ppl might don accept me

N darn... stuck in klang???

wif a 1.1K salary Per month??? Wtf?????

Dat small amount of salary enough for me?? [Aiks don need ask also noe it’s not enough for me]

Den I started to…

OMG!! OMG!!!!!!

Dis is my life?? So pathetic weh…

Lucky shit to have my frenz… haha.. After some survey... here I am... in sunway college... [It is an orang kaya college but that wasn’t the reason I am there for...zzzz =. =”…]

And there is a promise I made...

Which I need to make sure dat I won’t break my own stupid promise...

No matter what fucking reason I’m going to finish the damn fucking course...

I want to b ME again...

I don wana b nobody!

Well… till now... I am satisfied wif myself... its not only b’cuz of the afford I put in...

It’s the results I get... this were the thing that keeps me going…. And not forgotten... my big pig haha... he is the one behind all dis...

He is the another reason dat keeps me going…. I lurve n hates him so much..hahahha

and the main reason I am writing dis hope ppl who so-lucky reading dis shit will take dis story-of-mine as a lesson… I now there r ppl who r stuck in a junction don’t know where to go... my advice is follow ur heart... there is no use regretting it later cuz there is No way to turn back time.. U cant changes what’ve happen...

And to my lil couz... if u happens to read dis…. I want to tell u dat life goes on... the changes they makes u to make is not a big deal.. Life is full of changes n challenges… just take it wif an open heart…IF u can’t change it… and... When u r happy n willing to accept it wif a open heart... den black n white CAN b colorful again..

MeaNingful....

Coins

I saw a beggar by the roadside.. He was cold and dirty with those miserable expression on his face.. He was staring at the dust that seem so small for his half-opened eyes.. He was expecting for the sound of coins to hit the floor.. He just waiting with no hope..

I think about us in that flash of time.. All this while we just waiting for miracle.. Waiting for aids to support our pity life.. Is life that pity after all? Or we juz making a fuss out of it? Miracle happens when there are contributions and sacrifications.. No use to cry just like that beggar by the roadside..

Don't stop without any effort of trying.. Life is full of surprise if you only willing to be strong enough to move forward.. Some might give you headache but some could contribute millions of happiness.. Don't be that beggar by the roadside.. Let's move on and you will realise that life is not that hollow after all..

Enough of a fool in those dreams of emptiness.. Judging people by the ironic look through magnifying glass.. Thinking you have achieve the greatest peak of success by just comparing it to yourself.. What a fool who can't admit your failure in life.. You just another beggar by the roadside cause life is not just being old.. It's about being rich with everything that can ask for..

That beggar didn't leave me his name in the end.. Only his pity image and memory.. Gone forever like whisper of wind.. He is not you cause I know you will not become the beggar by the roadside.. A roadside of your life..

dis is something i read on a person's blog in frenster... it makes me realise lots of things...

well...

it seems lik ppl around me has a blog... hmmm..i also update my blog la.. b4 they leave me behind.. haha crap la.. wat kind of theory is this.. haha so forget bout it..ok ok... hmmmm few more days to go...!! faster... !!! quick quick!!cepat cepat!! kuai tian kuai tian!! fai tit fai tit!! ing geh ing geh!! hehe dis sunday is my finals.. good~~~ haha "good" cuz next week is my holiday hahahah.. i wan holiday!!! faster faster... c la.. gila again..hahahah erm erm erm holiday wanna do wat le.. wat else other den go holiday? but where??? hehe stil havent plan le... of cuz its cuz of no idea la. aiks.. n... the most important thing is no $$$$.. where to get $$$$?? aiks.. think till head also big d.. aiks.. aiya nth to write d la.. hahahah if hav to write essay for assignment o exam sure die wan.. the essay sure write till very veri long wan.. but no relevant information wan..hahahah all the input useless wan..hahahahah so wth..